Monday, May 15, 2006

One Bad Choice

I'm pissed off with myself. I hate it when I'm not able to live to my standards. There are times when I'm doing good for a few days and then WHAM! I make one rrrrreeaallyyy stupid, lame, irresponsible choice (gritting teeth) that sets me back a long way.

It's like I take two steps forward and one step back. And when I analyse what I've done and try to figure out what ingenious thought led me to my brilliant decision, all I can come up with is 'What was I thinking?!?!?!?!!!' Shit on my face!

Now that I've vented a little on myself, I'm feeling better. :)

One of the problems I've faced in my life is a lack of consistency. I do pretty good in bursts and then screw it up for myself every now and then. I do eventually move towards an objective or goal, but a lot slower than I would like to. It's something I really need to work on. A bit of discipline and mental alertness is what I need probably.

And then my buddy Oscar comes up with a wise one to confuse the hell out of me...
“Consistency is the last resort of the unimaginative” - Oscar Wilde

*sigh*

4 comments:

Noojes said...

We're human - give yourself a break...

noojes

ramblingmuse said...

I agree with noojes. Don't be so hard on yourself! One of the greatest blessings of life is knowing that despite one bad choice (or even many bad choices), we can *still* make new choices every day.

And boo on your friend, Oscar. I don't like that quote at all.

I'm going to replace his quote with this one, ok? LOL!


"I will grow. I will become something new and grand, but no grander than I now am. Just as the sky will be different in a few hours, its present perfection and completeness is not deficient, so am I presently perfect and not deficient because I will be different tomorrow."
- Wayne Dyer

Alexys Fairfield said...

I agree with Noojes and RM (I love Mr. Dyer's quote)

Sounds like you need a little love Ajeya. So I am sending you a hug. There. Feel better now? India's a long way from California, but if I have to come down there.....

Back to business. Pick yourself up, brush yourself off and get back on that horse! Realizing what you NEED to do in order to do what you WANT to do is WINNING the battle of self-doubt.

Mr. Wilde also said, "One can survive everything, nowadays, except death."

P.S. You can't go wrong with the advice of three women. :)

Ajeya said...

noojes... yeah, I know. I should.

RM... Yeah! I didn't like Oscar's quote either :-P

That Wayne Dyer quote is AMAZING! thanks!

Alexys... Thanks so much for the hug :-D I am much better now. I have picked myself up. It's time to move forward.

Good advice from three women, can't argue with that :)