Dunno how to feel...

OK, I'm sort of confused. Let me explain...

So one of these women that I went out with over the past couple months is super fun, super crazy (like me!) and digs me even. Where's the hitch? She's sort of into another relationship, not yet going out, doesn't know where it's heading kinda thing. And did I mention I totally dig her too? Last Saturday, we were thisclose to kissing but stopped just short of it. So we spoke on Sunday and said we'd just go with the flow and see where it goes. But she kept saying she didn't want to lead me on. I don't even know if she's led me on, stuff has just... happened. My friends totally like her and I, to be honest to myself, really like her too.

Aside:
I don't even know if I should be writing about this on my blog since I've discovered there are many lurkers around these parts, whom I know. But I don't want to change the spirit of the blog. It's always been more writing to myself so I'm going to continue in the same vein...

Now yesterday, a close family friend has asked me to meet another woman to see if 'I might interested in a long-term relationship with her'. For those of you who arent' Indian, this is how arranged marriages work. There's massive social networking that goes on to get single, "marriagable" folk hooked up, to be married of course. So now, I'm supposed meet this new woman and figure out if I like her and want to eventually get married. Meeting people for a purpose sorta freaks me out. The purpose always seems to overshadow the people. You know what I'm saying? (for family members who lurk here... SHHHHHHH! IT'S AN ORDER! you know who you are! I will run away from home if you go about advertising it to ANYBODY! I promise you)

Anyhow, I don't know about this whole marriage thing. I don't want to brood over it too much but it's what's currently in my head so I'm spilling it out here. Basically, I really like the woman mentioned in the first part of this post. And I'm going to go with the flow. Do exactly what I feel the right thing to do is and see how it goes.

I love the confusion and unpredicatability of this whole thing. I have no idea what's going to happen. And deep down, I'm cool with anything.

The other day I was proposing the concept of surprise marriages to a friend. You know how you have surprise birthdays? Same thing! Except you see who you're marrying right at the wedding. Haha... What a trip! Imagine that! Going into your own wedding having no idea who you're going to marry. No prenups allowed! :)